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Title: Commencement Author: dany
She never really understood people I remember when she would ask me After her emotions were all screwed up and she was upset With a frown She would say Can I be happy now? And I would say yes And she would be glad and say whew thanks And she was happy now We had a two bedroom house No room for a third kid But we made room irish walls are flexible I got a stencil and painted yellow duckies on the wall I wrote a poem Welcoming her into the world Never has a person been so welcome I wrote A crib broken in by her brother and sister Would suffice We made love in our hearts for one more baby Never knowing it was going to break us in half Love is blind that way She came and she was beautiful She made our world like the first two had We loved her ,,,,our Franny But she could not love us back…. The doctor said the words My wife held me close that day She wanted me to be strong and She wanted me to break down and cry with her too No walking like normal kids No talking like normal kids No smiles No acknowledgments Sad looks from smart parents who knew And understood. She began school at three years old The basics The very basics Like surviving the day, alive No words, toilets, laughs, jokes, smiles, frowns But kicking And screaming And impulses and scratches And locks on bedroom doors and then drugs And then exhaustion and a simple creed If franny is happy I am happy No college No marriage No grandkids Hopefully no rapes No savagery No stupidity…just helplessness And one way love. At 1.5 years she walked At 5 she talked At 7 she said she loved me At 8 her mother left me To a life of daddy weekends of kicking and screaming No sleep no quiet no peace Just keep her alive Keep her alive When she overdosed and almost died I was holding her When she screamed in the night And would not sleep I was holding her When she got out of the house and was in the middle of the street In front of the pickup truck that almost killed her I was holding her in the ditch By the road When I dived and pulled her out of the way And I just held her breathing The two of us Keeping alive Alive She taught me so much Patience Love Unconditional love She taught me to Sit still and to be happy For the simple things Like cheesy noodles and Sponge bob square pants She taught me That life is about loving Unconditionally Life is about surviving Not complaining 1000 knock knock jokes 500 massages to help her sleep 5000 big scary good night stories Starting out once upon a time A long long time ago There lived this tiny little princess Franny In a land called fart-a lot She still laughs at that And so on Thursday She graduates From high school Cap and gown Standing in line Alive Aware Content She will be happy I will be happy Maybe I will ask her Franny…… Can I be happy now? Djb Comments on "Commencement"
Posted by RianPitan on November 07, 2012
A wonderful heartfelt poem, Dany! You can be happy now. It's up to Franny from here on out and I image she has learned a great deal from you, even if she doesn't say so. Posted by A Girl Unknown on November 06, 2012 Wonderful wonderful poem. Dany, if you can, please be happy. |
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